This blog post is a little different from the ones i am normally do but my blog is for the things i love writing about, which can be anything that i have planned or thinking off at the time.
In life, nothing is ever certain, your path is never a straight one, but a mess of bumps, twists and turns at every corner, you can picture what you would like your life to be you can work as hard as you like for it to become realty but the truth is it can be gone just like a click of a button.
The key is simple, take each day as it comes, dont try and live your life to a countdown on when its going to happen, take little steps to aim towards it but always make sure you have a backup plan as well.
For me a few years a go my dream was to own a 2- 3 bedroom house, with my partner, nothing fancy, just a nice sized bedroom, a office room, for making videos, doing work etc, and a room to put all the rubbish that we need just not at a any single time.
A nice kitchen and maybe a small back garden.
is this still my dream but life has changed since then, slowly my life has a different direction a different purpose, and i am still learning things about myself.
Like how creative my mind, is, what kind of food i like, learning that i can just let myself go at a kind of night club, and just enjoy myself.
So what is my perfect life?
Well to start with i know there will never be a cure for mental health its apart of us, some suffer more then others.
I think the part that would help the most in life, is being able to get better treatment, talking to even more people that understand about mental health and not just going to give you tablets and tell you to get over it.
to have been able to get a assessment for dyslexic and dysprixa, so that it can help with things like the council etc.
To be able to keep opening up, keep trying new things in life and coming out of my comfort zone.
this next one is the most silly, and i would of never openly mention this due to fear of judgement, being laughed at etc but at this point in my life i dont care what people think because i am living it how i want, loving my life, and i am not going to change for anyone, whoever thinks i am werido then good because i am, and i accept that and relish in it hehe.
getting back on topic, is to be able to be comfortable around women, from the day i got my first girlfriend, to now being 25 years old nearly 26 i still can not be myself.
shows you how weak i am when the first time i got with my last girlfriend, i sent her a text asking if i could kiss her because i was to stupidly shy to talk to her, yet alone wanting to love her.
we enjoyed the day, but i wished that i had more confidence as was myself.
Online is the place where i am myself, i can be cheeky, i can be funny, i can be open because its just a screen its not like i am steering into their eyes,
if ever i am in the doctors, in a pub having a meal, or some place where they are a lot of women, or even just one, i start to blush, i start to feel, like moving, my chest goes tight, i start for no reason checking apps on my phone every few mins, even though theres nothing important to look at on them.
the only place i am a little more confident is sport, and the only reason why is because i am in the zone and enjoying the sport, so my confidence is already a lot better that talking becomes second nature.
again that is until i have sat down and started talking with them.
I have accepted that, that is just who i am, most women like a guy who is confident and i am just not that person to start with.
once i have had a little push, to get going, i get better with just relaxing and talking but its that intital step which i have not yet overcome.
so i would like, to be able to be more confident around people, around women, and be the person i want to be.
increase my circle of friends both female and males, and then find someone to be with.
That person has to understand what i go, and learn to help, but at the same time works both ways that, if that person is giving you, need to be there for them and help them but most important is listening to them.
That person must be able to have some kind of drive or some idea what they want in life, even if it changes.
theres nothing worse talking to someone who goes i dont know to lots of things and in their voice sound like they dont care about anything.
Prime example are, what do you want to eat, shrugs with a cant be bothered tone, i dont know anything.
where do you want to go today, same response, what are your hobbies, answer you know hanging out with friends, question anything else? i dont know really,
to be honest hanging out with friend is not a hobby, hobbies are more like, sports, drawing, etc
you can get a sum of who a person is just by their attitude in life.
I would not want that, because then it starts to bring you down.
Moving onto other things in my perfect ish life, as again nothing is set in stone.
be able to have better technology, e.g camera, computer, phone, etc so i can do what i love but with much better quality.
To be able to travel more, cover events, connect with people, help the community more, help with other peoples projects.
Be able to become good at sport, and enter competitions, have more money, as anyone who says money cant buy you happiness is a lier. it cant buy you full happiness that i argee but it can help you through dark times.
I think my life to be honest it just a simple one, have someone good to be with, still do what i love doing, being open more, and helping out, thats all i want, in the past i wanted so much more but when you kinda put in a situation where you build your life back up , you start to not miss certain things and find new things to replace those that are 10 times better.
Some of you may think my perfect life is silly, and that this blog post is silly, and others may not, its just something i had on my mind that i felt like sharing (:
i would like to know your idea of a perfect life, how your progress is getting there, what are the challenges you face, and if your path has changed since you first started thinking about what you want in life (:
btw is mental health awareness month this may which is may 2017 !!! so heres a pictures of me
if you want to check out my social media you can below
https://www.facebook.com/dmpphotographyuk/
https://twitter.com/DanMediaP
https://twitter.com/DMPWORLDMUSIC
https://twitter.com/DanielMVlogs
https://www.instagram.com/dmpadventures/
http://dannytheexplorer.tumblr.com/
http://dmpuk.weebly.com/
